Since I’m on my study break right now, I decided to blog since it’s been a while.

At Newsong service today, it reminded me of something that happened two weeks ago and it happened again today. Part of the lyrics to the last song they say before the message was:

I got the joy, I got the joy, I got the joy

Like two weeks ago, I literally could sing that part because I just wasn’t feeling any joy whatsoever and I still don’t. I started tearing up of course and tried to get myself together before the message started. I mean, there are times when I have fun and I feel joyful but that feeling quickly dies after the moment is over. 

Maybe I’m stressed because of school with finals and my senior design project (and panicking about life in general). I know God’s joy is in me, but I don’t feel it for some reason. Am I letting the things around me get to me?

Sorry if it sounds so depressing, but good luck on finals all you college kids!

I’m beginning to see the blessings that God has placed in my life when I least expect it. It’s in those times when I don’t plan things out that He surprises me. 

With break being so long, I decided to do an art project! :) Hopefully all goes well and I actually finish it! I realized that it may be challenging but hopefully fun and eye-opening at the same time! :) hehe can’t wait to work on it!

A couple weeks ago, during the Jonah Bible Study at Newsong, Priscilla mentioned being thankful for unanswered prayers. It wasn’t until then that I realized that I am thankful for some of the unanswered prayers in my life. A lot of the time, I’m not the most patient and I always want God to just answer me, for Him to just answer my prayers. Before that day, I never thought about it like that. It made me realize that we oftentimes put God in a box because we tend to want things to go our way and if they don’t, we become unhappy with God. We focus so much on the now and the present, but God knows where we are going to be and He always knows what’s best for us whether we realize it or not.

It may only be the middle of fall quarter, but I keep thinking about the lyrics in this song… :(

(It seriously makes me tear up every time! Even reading the lyrics…)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn’t know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin’ on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we’d get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat chorus

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

Repeat chorus 3x

<—isn’t this one of the cutest pooh bears ever!? hehe

"…to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair."